in dire need of a nap
Caught up in the whirlwind
Of everything of little importance
So I can tell you that nothing's changed
I'm still busy
I'm still wanting
I can still look you in the eye
And read you like my favorite book
Can you see my uncertainty of desire?
Or did you turn that part of you off?
You're riding right alongside life
You're moving on and up
I'm watching you float away to the next cloud
While I grasp for silver linings
But all I catch is the oxygen of reality
--Disappointment and cracked self-confidence--
So I fall back to earth
To the cold pillow on my bed
I'm still awake
I'm still thinking
And I still dream of you
"new jersey" was just too boring for zb
Weather: Gorgeous. Autumn is slowly making its presence known again, and I love it.
Mood: Mmm. It's so hard to explain. It's loneliness, frustration, stuffy-nose-tiredness, and regret -- all rolled up into a lovely cupcake I'd like to call "mini-depression." Right. Maybe I'll use that description again sometime.
Book: Quantitative Chemical Analysis -- Daniel C. Harris, 6th Edition. I dread the day of my first test in this class.
Movie: Garden State. Explanation given in subject of post and further elaboration to follow.
Music: "Let Go" -- Frou Frou. I'm completely in love with song and the above movie, for the song is off the Garden State soundtrack that I soon hope to purchase.
Subject of post: New Jersey is the "Garden State" as most are probably aware. And zb = Zach Braff, who wrote the screenplay, directed the movie, and starred in it. What a talented guy. And pretty good looking too. ;)
This movie made me feel so many emotions that I didn't know I was capable of feeling because all of them were rolled into one indescribable thing that built up to the end of the movie and prevented me from releasing it. I didn't know whether I wanted to smile, laugh, cry, scream...I just had such an emotional reaction, but it was completely silent because I had no idea how to let it all out. I really liked the artistic nature of this film. It was beautifully done, and I honestly just fell in love with everything about it.
All done. Because I don't think any of that made sense.
Off to try to read for classes, which will inevitably result in falling asleep. I bid you good evening and farewell.