in lieu of studying for my advanced biochemistry exam
Are you watching the sunlight fade tonight?
Is it because you miss longing for something
Or because you have nothing better to do?
The sky’s hues deepen as you recede into yourself.
You’re staring straight ahead, barely watching my lips move
Out of the corner of your eye, and I know you can’t hear me this time.
It’s clear that I have lost you to nature and sorrow.
The dusk, this transition period, is beautiful, but it’s killing me.
The beauty we see while waiting so anxiously
For darkness to finally loosen its grip and fall upon
The days we wish to forget for a while.
Your body, so stiff and stationary, still stands at attention
To the last remnants of warm light that illuminate our faces.
I don’t know how to convince you that the pain of sunset
Prepares you for the darkest of nights,
That the darkest of nights merely sets the stage
For the promise of thousands of sparkling lights.
Night can charm you just as well, as pleasant as day.
But the changes of twilight you watch so closely
Will always find you wrought with uncertainty.